Freedom From What?

Being 30, it's a big deal! 😱 You will never realize it until it hits you literally hard. I can now understand how Snow White felt when she woke up from her eternal sleep.

If you are thirty and living under a roof with your overprotective parents, then you are screwed.


I mean, we all love our parents. We all love the perks of staying with them: no rent & free food. Yaay! But, all benefits come with one giant sacrifice: FREEDOM. This seven-letter word is too heavy and expensive to afford if you were born into an Indian middle-class family.

It is not today that I felt that this is the high time to move out. Let's do a quick recap. It will help you understand my pain.

This story of my life starts back in 2014. I took an examination for BHU with the thought that if I cleared the exam, it would be a golden opportunity to move out. I thought this would be my place for at least the next two years. But destiny said, "No, child, wait for the right moment." In 2018, I traveled 2222 km to settle in Mangalore for a job. That too went down the drain. I think destiny said, "Oh well, it's a sign that you need to have some patience." I tried my last chance in 2020, in Ahmedabad. Amidst the COVID-19 lockdown and immense emotional melodrama, I FAILED to move out, and destiny didn't show up this time.

So, the thing is, why do I constantly want to move out?

Why am I running behind the fantasy of living alone?

I've been asking myself this for a long time, "FREEDOM FOR WHAT?"

Pretty deep shit, right?





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